something negative

I'm very interested in adventure race, but there is not good race, ideal location, also ideal distance, mostly it's held in Nagano, or far off somewhere from Tokyo otherwise longest mileage.
I will go for trail running to Takao or Ome on July 1st with some Namban guys, so can not wait.

I'm getting lost my motivation for running, since I'm very slow on the track, every split getting slow my speed. Even I should enjoy running before hard training, I would like to run as I expect more. It's time to quite? change for something new? My efforts don't pay me off, so that feel blue.

today's efforts:
mileage: 9.6km
1,600m as warm up - 2,000m as a part of 10km -
1,000m - 2,000m - 1,000m - 2,000m as cool down
time: I didn't set my watch